sometimes

sometimes i feel like i can't do anything right sometimes i feel like nothing is good enough sometimes i wonder how i can go on i love my child more anything in the world and i would do anything for for her. sometimes i wonder if that's enough.

betwixt and between - a little more about me

be·twixt [bih-twikst] preposition, adverb 1. Chiefly South Midland and Southern U.S. between. Idioms 2. betwixt and between, neither the one nor the other; in a middle or unresolved position: Not wanting to side with either her father or her mother, she was betwixt and between. Origin: before 950; Middle English betwix, Old English betwix, betweox, equivalent to be- be- + tweox, cognate with Old High German zwiski two each; akin to German zwischen between (preposition) i am the girl in between. when my parents divorced, i only chose to live with my dad at first because my brothers already had, and i couldn't make the decision for myself. i grew up the youngest of three, but i might as well have been the middle child. my oldest brother was straight a's, rarely in trouble, went to college, got married, had one boy and one girl (both super well behaved), and works making a pretty good living to support his awesome family. my middle brother got d's and f's, dropped out of school, had a daughter, got married, had another daughter, worked a long time as a mechanic, got a divorce, got remarried, had two more kids, quit working as a mechanic to be a carpenter, and struggles to support his family of seven (his second wife, already had a child from a previous relationship). i, on the other hand, had a solid C gpa, got married too young, no kids from that marriage, divorced pretty quickly, went around being single for years, got a decent job, married my amazing husband, acquired two great step sons in the process and then had a baby myself. we are barely scraping by at the moment (one step-son still lives with his mother), but make too much to qualify for government assistance. so that's me. why should you care? well, i think there are a lot more people out there like me, and since i decided to share my life, i hope i might reach others who i might connect with. i'll share with you my wins, my fails, my struggles, and you can share the same with me in the comments. will that work for you?

what is "the wiggle life"?

the wiggle life is what my life has become since my darling daughter, nicknamed wiggle, has come into my life. yes, this is a blog by a parent. this is not a parenting blog. this is a blog about adjustments, epiphanies, mistakes, successes, and everything in between. a little about me: i just turned 33, i am diabetic and overweight, i smoke too much, i drink on occasion, and i need to get myself healthier. having wiggle made me realize that i need to get myself to a better place physically, so i can stick around and see her grow up. i have decided to focus heavily on my eating habits, and making sure i take my medications as directed. i intend to add exercising back after my body adjusts to the change in eating. today is my last day to eat processed, unhealthy junk foods. today is my last day smoking. tomorrow, i start to make things better. tomorrow starts a new adventure, here in the wiggle life.